The day I learned I was pregnant with Lucas was the happiest day of my life, or so I thought. There was also the day I saw his little body, kicking and wriggling, on ultrasound – that was by far the happiest day of my life. I left my doctor’s office, tears streaming down my face, entranced with the fuzzy black and white picture I carried with me.
Then came the day Lucas was born. Now that was the happiest day of my life, even though I was in labor for 15 ½ hours and pushed for another hour. It was an exhausting day, but I was enthralled with this little bundle of joy my husband and I brought into the world. And it seemed that almost every day after, I became more and more in love with Lucas – his big, beautiful blue eyes; his smile; his kisses; his sense of humor; just his little being.
Fifteen months after Lucas was born I learned I was pregnant with Justin and I thought I couldn’t get any happier. I would now have two bouncing boys to fill my home and my heart. Despite another long labor, I thought the day Justin was born just had to be the happiest day of my life – my family was now complete with all three of my boys (husband included!).
Again, each and every day since Justin’s birth, I continue to be amazed by how much my love for both my boys just grows and grows. Not only am I completely and utterly head over heels for Justin – his big, beautiful blue eyes; pouty lips and edible cheeks – but I am also totally enamored with the wonderful relationship Lucas and Justin are clearly developing.
So after all is said is done, I now know that each day with my boys is truly the happiest day of my life. I love them not only for who they are and what we do together, but also for everything they have taught me about myself.
Read about the baby love some other breastfeeding Mom's are feeling:
Tanya over at the Motherwear Blog writes about how it sometimes takes a while to fall in love with your baby if there are other things going on after/related to birth in How my body loved my baby when my mind could not.
Angela at Breastfeeding 123 discusses helping a big brother or sister welcome a new baby into the family in her post Helping A Child Welcome a New Baby into the Family.
Jennifer of The Lactivist discusses how love makes you do crazy things.